Energy and non of it :-(

This last week i have got no motivation and seem to be tired and knackered all the time.  When i get in from work i go to the gym get back have tea, get showered watch a bit of tele then im dropping to sleep and its only like 7.30.

All this week i have been going to bed at about 9ish as i cant keep my eyes open any longer, even last night i had my nails done then did my tea and had jacket with chilli on, had a shower which was really hard work as i just couldnt be bothered to move then i got in bed and watched tele but was falling asleep.  At about 8.30 i then decided to go and get in bed with mam and have a drink and watch this programme, but again i fell asleep so decided to go get in bed about 9.20pm.  This is worrying me slighty as when i wake up in the morning im more tired so its not like these extra hours are helping and to be honest its a good job im not doing anything on a night as dont think i could if i had plans.  I also think mam is worrying slighty, she says its because im not eating enough so got no energy from my food and the truth is i am trying to cut down and i am always leaving food on my plate when i have tea which i never ust to do at all so even mam and my aunty terry have started to comment. 

I think i am losing weight but from the wrong area, i dont have a large bust at the best of times but now its getting smaller and my top half is losing the weight not my bum and thighs like i want it too.  So im confused, im gyming and running at the gym to try and move it from there but just losing it on top.  To be fair though im not too fussed about losing my chest as never really had much and at least they are pert and not droppy but just want to lose it off my behind………….IS THIS SO MUCH TO ASK, god dam you bum.

Anyway after my little moan not really got no gossip, the count down in on for leaving here and thank god, every day seems to be getting longer and boring-er so 11days left and counting….

Also think im having a pizza as a treat sat night and gonna treat myself to a normal size bar of just plain dairy milk,  i have been dreaming of eating one all week, just some nice milk chocolate.  Gonna get a dominos im treating mam and dad so hoping its BOGOF as we really would need 2 as my dad will eat a full one to himself.

~ by jade1 on March 1, 2007.