God im sssssoooooo excited feels like its nearly xmas and the count down is on,  not only do i only have 1 and a half works days left its also nearly summer and i find myself smiling for no reason knowing that its nearly time for summer clothes and summer happy times to begin.  I feel like i have a new leash of life and really jolly all of a sudden, just think i have a few things at the moment to get excited about

Going to frankie and bennies with everyone from work tonight for my leaving do, but im nervous for some reason knowing everyone is going just for me, makes me feel quilty.  But i did pick up a menu last week and think im gonna have the BBQ chicken lasange and maybe treat myself and have a monty pudding, greedy i know but i did go spinning last night and gyming monday so i deserve one.

Other than that got no news really, on a work course tomorrow with Whitegates in hudderfields about the new HIPS (Home Information Packs) that are coming into force, apparently before you even put your house on the market you need to get all your surveys and things done and if not you and the estate agent can be fined…. im a little nervous though as will have to act all professional.

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As many of you know i only have another 3 working days after today in my current job as i leave on friday and i have thursday off anyway as im on a course for my new job so yeeeehhhhhhh im really excited.  Just hope this week goes fast like lightning but i know it wont as my week days never bloody do.

Had a brillant weekend, went out sat night into mansfield (god i have missed it, not been out since january) with all the girls from whitegates.  It was a real good night i was wasted which is always good and ended up going to late lounge then liquid so it was eventful and me and jarvo actually got in liquid free, we jumped the q then just ran in and up the stairs and nobody stopped us so saved us £8, mega.  I felt really bad all day yesterday and had to go shopping so was like a zombie all day, still feel a tad hungover today if im honest, gonna cain the gym later to get rid of the badness.

 Also got my fancy dress outfit for saturday, im going as a pirate and cant wait.  and also got myself a new outfit for sunday night too a white denium skirt and a blue boob tube, just need some sliver pumps type shoes now i think.  Also i saw a pair of white jeans from topshop tall, i already have them in the black and denium and thinking i might buy them for bank holiday sunday night as a treat for myself as they are really comfy, although think i would be nervous going out in white jeans for stains.

Other than that, i walked to the shop at work a bit a go to but myself some cherry coke, the diet one.  But when i was nearly back at the office i realised it was full fat cherry coke and not the diet stuff and in a little bottle there was over 200 calories.  i had a little swallow and it was so nice but i couldnt drink it as i could justify that many calories so i put it in my bag to take home for my dad.  I ended up having to throw it down the sink as it kept talking to me telling me to drink it i had to get rid.

Thats it really nothing exciting happens to me much !!!

Also if anyone knows of any good insurance companys that are cheap!!!

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Good news folks they are finally going, by no means have they gone completey but now i only really have 2 on my chin that you can still see A LITTLE SO THEY ARE ON THE UP   Went to the sunbed last night for 6 mins and i think it worked although my body is a little red today.

Also went to the car garage last night with everyone and before i knew it i was getting a price for a brand new 206 cc allure 07 plate in red, as the bloke said its better to get brand new as they are under warrenty then in 2 1/2 years i can change it and not pay no more money a month.  Plus my mum and dad want me to get brand new with my job and if anything goes wrong your covered.  So got a price for that and now im goning to get a price for a mini cooper converable next week with amber and see what works out cheaper as fancy a mini more now and i want that cream colour like louise redknapp had (i wanted cream before i saw she had it too) so excited about that.  Plus they said they would give me 2 grand for mine which is brill i think.

so fingers crossed will be ordering one soon i hope but now rushing to buy a brand new one just yet gotta weigh things out im not rushing into anything as its a lot of money but im really excited.

I was trying to put a pic of the mini i want but cant do it sorry but you can look at it on the mini homepage and configure your car, mini cooper converable in the cream colour with black bonnet strips..take a look and let me know what you think????

I went to asda last night to collect some TCP for the dam spots and guess what they dont bloody sell it….GREAT!!!!!!

So on getting ready for bed i decided from the advice from my aunty to put toothpaste on my spots as this will dry them up, did it hell as like they look worse today then yesterday i look shocking like a 12 year old suffering puberty.  I even put toothpast on my spots and fake tan on my cheeks, BAD IDEA as now i look like my make up is all patchy its horrible.

Didnt wanna come in today i look that bad honestly, if i could take a pic i would be would break the camera.  So im going on the sunbed tonight, its my last resort that always works a treeat on spots but then the risks are higher.

Looking forward to tonight though, me amber and dad are going to peugout in chesterfield the blakes garage as its offer night on cars so we are going looking for me, you never know i might come away with a new car suppose will take my mind off these spots.

An update on my mum too, she is looking much better now although shes not well think the tablets they gave her are making her dizzy and things but hope she will be loads better today.

Why is that when you know your going out at the weekend you get spots.  And not one but this morning i had 6 surfaced, yesterday i had 5 so it seems im getting a new one daily.  And im not just talking little spots im talking massive red lumps one in the middle of my eyebrows, one on my forehead, two hugh ones on my chin one on my cheek and one on the other cheek.  Even concealer doesnt cover them i feel horrible and look it too.

Gonna start putting on TCP i have decided as i ran out and that works a treat, just hope they are gone for saturday night as dont want 6 friends coming out with me

Also had a nice weekend, quite chilled out really was at work saturday then got back and went for a jog with ally.  The worrying thing is i go to the gym about 3/4 times a week and it killed me running round the rez, ally was better then me and she hasnt done exercise in ages and thats a little worrying   Sunday i just watched the departed with my mum and its a mega film i thought really worth watching, defo had me on the edge of my seat.

Got in last night to get ready to meet laura at spinning but i ended up not going, my mum had gone to the doctors her face has swelled to twice the size so i started doing tea.  When she got back it was so bad i started laughing and couldnt stop.  It didnt look like her at all her lips look worse then leslie ash she actually looks like a cross between a horse and a fish and duck its dredful.  The doctor doesnt know what it is just she has had a reaction to something and gave her steroids.

Getting up this morning it was still as bad but moved and her cheeks are more swollen this morning so she is panicking.  She is gonna go back to the doctors and amber will take her as shes off today.  so hope shes ok.

Other than that my lifes pretty dull at the moment except only 7 working days left till i leave…………yay……… xxxxxxxxx

This last week i have got no motivation and seem to be tired and knackered all the time.  When i get in from work i go to the gym get back have tea, get showered watch a bit of tele then im dropping to sleep and its only like 7.30.

All this week i have been going to bed at about 9ish as i cant keep my eyes open any longer, even last night i had my nails done then did my tea and had jacket with chilli on, had a shower which was really hard work as i just couldnt be bothered to move then i got in bed and watched tele but was falling asleep.  At about 8.30 i then decided to go and get in bed with mam and have a drink and watch this programme, but again i fell asleep so decided to go get in bed about 9.20pm.  This is worrying me slighty as when i wake up in the morning im more tired so its not like these extra hours are helping and to be honest its a good job im not doing anything on a night as dont think i could if i had plans.  I also think mam is worrying slighty, she says its because im not eating enough so got no energy from my food and the truth is i am trying to cut down and i am always leaving food on my plate when i have tea which i never ust to do at all so even mam and my aunty terry have started to comment. 

I think i am losing weight but from the wrong area, i dont have a large bust at the best of times but now its getting smaller and my top half is losing the weight not my bum and thighs like i want it too.  So im confused, im gyming and running at the gym to try and move it from there but just losing it on top.  To be fair though im not too fussed about losing my chest as never really had much and at least they are pert and not droppy but just want to lose it off my behind………….IS THIS SO MUCH TO ASK, god dam you bum.

Anyway after my little moan not really got no gossip, the count down in on for leaving here and thank god, every day seems to be getting longer and boring-er so 11days left and counting….

Also think im having a pizza as a treat sat night and gonna treat myself to a normal size bar of just plain dairy milk,  i have been dreaming of eating one all week, just some nice milk chocolate.  Gonna get a dominos im treating mam and dad so hoping its BOGOF as we really would need 2 as my dad will eat a full one to himself.

Thank god its that middle of the week day as this week is dragging already and everyday its harder and harder to awaken myself in the morning and climb out of my warm, cosy bed to get up and ready for work.

I was poorly sick most of the weekend and it started on friday resulting in me leaving work at 11am i felt that bad, i had sickness and diarrheoa all weekend (nice i know me sharing it with you) so was resting most of the weekend.

As some of you know im veturing into good old mansfield on 17th march (st paddys day) in fancy dress for my sisters birthday.  we are going out at 5 (although i will have some vino before to give me courage) and i still do not have any outfit sorted.  imgoing to a fancy dress shop next sat after work and was thinking of going as fame, in legging and stuff but mam said i will look even stupider in that then anything else so know maybe a cowgirl (as i already have the boot) and i thought a checked shirt with a neckacheif thing some sort of skirt and boots and holsters with toy guns in them and a cowgirl hat.  So if anyone has any better ideas let me know.

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Well the middle of the week is upon us the day you manage to get through noing that you only have 2 work days left and then its the joyous weekend, smiles are upon my face especially as i only have 1 hour and 10 minutes left at work on the mid-week day to go.

Hopefully should get me car back tonight, even though i have never really taken care of her i have realised with this week long break when we have been apart and out of each other company just how much i bloody miss her and how you take having a car for granted, i might even go as far as saying im gonna really look after her know, drive more careful, stop driving round on the red petrol light and telling her i will never let it get this low again if she only gets me to the required place and i might even clean her every now and then.   THEN AGAIN WHO I AM KIDDING I DONT MISS HER THAT MUCH .

Well i rang the garage at dinner to say i wanted it back and was it ready for me to pick up as i need it back tonight im working at Whitegates tomorrow afternoon when i finish work and need it tonight so i can drive to work tomorrow so when i finish at 2 i can go straight home and get changed to be at whitegates for 2.30pm.  They said it still wasnt ready as something to do with my broken light is still being sorted, i told the lady i needed it today so would ring after work but she said if its ready before she will ring me.

Who am i kidding though im queen of bad luck, things never go to plan for me just lately i have obviously done something ver wrong somewhere and getting paid for it now.

Another thing is i should my phone on ebay at the weekend and the lady sent me £125 cash so i tottered on into town saturday to pick up my new phone and now she has emailed my mum (whos ebay account it is) saying she is sending it back its not loud enough, so i am on a mad mission to sell it again as i dont have £125 to send her back

Had a really good night last night, borrowed ambers car and went to the gym as mam, amber and terry were painting them paintings that are all in (dont know what they are called) where there is just a slash of paint on it.  They all wanted one and as they are expensive and look easy to do they reckoned they could too.  To be fair i took the piss out of them all the time they was on about doing it as thought it was preety darn funny and to my surprised all 3 of them are bloody brillant and i feel bad for doubting them.  well done.

After my backing from the gym i had tea with everyone and after for pudding me and amber did pancakes, even though its a day early but we just couldnt wait any longer with all the toppings in the fridge we cracked…..they were gorge but after i felt sick so when we had cleared up i decided to then do my jordan video to burn off the pancake calories and after i felt good for doing so.

I have decided from now on in gonna go to the gym (trying for everynight) then come home and do my jordan video too just to try and lose weight and tone up extra fast as going out in fancy dress for ambers birthday on 17th march so cant wait.

nothing else to report except some dick rang me last night at 1.30AM i repeat 1.30AM on withheld number and woke me up the twat(s).